Our Angel, Jeffrey

You may have noticed we haven’t posted in the past few days. We have been going through a pretty devastating time. Our sweet angel, jeffrey started not doing too well and having breathing issues. He was staying at a vet hospital in Arizona since Friday and wasn’t getting better. Yesterday morning we spend a few hours with him and we knew in our hearts it was time. I’m grateful he let us know.

My heart is in a millions pieces.

I knew he wasn’t going to live forever, but I sure hoped somehow he would. Truthfully, he lived a lot longer than I could have ever hoped for. We were sure he wouldn’t live longer than his brother, and then he did and really thrived for over 16 years. Even with all his health issues, his deformed leg, becoming blind, and deaf… he was such a little fighter. I know he lived a great life full of love beyond measure.

My baby boy. I love you more than I could ever imagine. You held my heart together when it was breaking through so many tough times. You brought us SO much joy. You were there with us through some of the most difficult things in our lives.

He gave the best snuggles through our IVF struggles, Dean’s nap buddy through his chemo and cancer fight, my company when Dean was hospitalized multiple times and we couldn’t be with him, my little bear to hold when I was coping with my mom’s illness and passing.

Dean says he hung around long enough to get us through all this and make sure we were good. Maybe that’s true.

But, without him now, i’m really not sure how my heart can stay together.

He was excited to be with us on our journey. I’m glad he was with us for a month of it.

A part of me wanted to turn around and go home after having to say goodbye. I just can’t imagine enjoying the trip without him. But I guess this is the whole point of this trip, right?

But right now we are just taking it a moment at a time.

Jeffrey, Reff , Bubu- you have been my angel on earth for 16 years. Now you are our real life angel. Rest well sweet boy. Go run around , with your sight and hearing, and annoy your brother.

♥️ 🌈 🐾

12/2005- 5/8/22